HEROES

Not enough information. Wow.

It was very nice to have Heroes back. There are three or maybe now four shows I watch each week. That's really sad.

Heroes
Chuck
The Office
Lost

Three of the four shows are one hour long. Three and a half hours a week. That is deffinetly sad. plus sports. oh man.

Leaders

I have been having a hard time with my leaders. I keep finding pics on myspace and facebook of my leaders drinking or supporting other leaders drinking too much. I don't know what to do. I've talked about drinking problems and I have gotten rid of one leader due to stupid stuff on their myspace. It just keeps getting worse and worse. It keeps getting older and older and I'm not sure what to do.
I want to work for Golgotha more and seek out new leaders but I have no time to do that and run Golgotha. Please pray for my time management and for me having to talk to my boss about my future employment with Golgotha.

Family

Sometimes I take my family for granted. Well, most of the time I take my family for granted. I think they are all crazy and then I realize if everybody else is crazy...um.....maybe I'm crazy and they are all sain. I don't know. I should be happy I have relatives that love me and care about me but instead I try to distance myself. Why would somebody do that? Why would somebody who works with people with faiing lives due to family or lack there of why would I do that? I don't have a lot of time but I should make time.

I should make time.

Ben Harper

Amy and I saw Ben Harper in Detroit last night. What a great time. Besides all the drunk "fans" and the people that have money to waste so they go to a show even though they don't care about the bad- besides all that- The show was great. It was a mellow concert compared to past shows but it was still great. I have never heard a man sing with such passion. He's such a sweet guitar player plus he can write plus he can sing.

anyway

Ben is still the man.

Where theres a will....

I was at a "cousin's" party last night and I found a partner in crime. Every year Amy and her cousin's get together and have a cook out. One of her cousin's was talking to me and I told him about where I am headed and how excited I am to take Golgotha to the next level. He said he loves marketing and planning and he said he would love to partner with me. There is no major plan but it sure is nice to have somebody show an interest. He's also a tech wiz. Sweet.

Frustrating

I have talked to a couple of people about me going full time with Golgotha and I am getting very mixed reviews.

My mom told me if that I felt called then I have to do it.
She also told me that if i don't take a chance I will regret it forever. If I do it by faith then I don't feel like the word "chance" is relevant.

Amy is behind me. That is all that really matters to me.

Two people I was counting on for support looked at me like I was crazy. I was hoping they would be on my advocacy team. Now I feel like I have an even bigger hill to climb.

When it comes down to it I feel like this will be the test my faith needs. I worry but I know Jesus says in Matthew not to worry. Time to pray. Gotta Run.

Wow

I was just working on some fundraising stuff for Golgotha and Brian King from Vox United called me over my computer. It was crazy.

1- because it was over my computer and I have only done that once and it was in South Africa with Brian

2- because some of the stuff I was working on Brian told me to do not knowing that it was almost exactly what I was doing

anyway-

I have been doing some serious cleaning and reorganizing at Golgotha this weekend. It was fun but I have had enough. I do the tuff stuff that the kids would only go half way on but I'll let them do the easy stuff and then they'll feel good about themselves.

Church Search is On

Amy, Oliver, and I start the search for a new church today. We have taken a long break from going to a Sunday morning church and we have truly paid the price. Our faith has been nothing short of backsliding for the past 9 months or so. We are very excited to seek out a church family that we can connect ourselves with. We went to one church for a long time and connected with a Sunday school class where the people in the class where in their 70's, 40's and 30's. We loved this class and our faith grew like weeds but times change and everybody slowly broke off and moved on. Our family truly needs to be connected like that again. If we want to be true servants of Christ we cannot stay on the path of destruction we are on. It is so easy to sleep in on Sunday mornings. It is so easy to pretend like it is no big deal when inside you know you are missing a cornerstone of your faith. So, here goes.

First up- a nice small country church.

We have to start somewhere.

Remembering

I keep remembering things that happened in South Africa.
On Sunday morning we went to church and the service that day was going in to the local community door to door praying for people and telling them about Jesus. I was so nervous because I had never done anything like that before and I was in a country I knew very little about. I prayed about it while walking to the first house and I felt God say to me, "what are you nervous about? You know I'm in control."
It was a great lesson.

God is in control.